Mood: Intrigued by life
So when I woke up this morning I was dead tired and just wanted to go back to sleep.
I believe that all can relate to this for sure. Lol
However after dragging my ass out of bed and seeing to that the fire was going in the fireplace and that the coffee was on its way I just realized that I was standing there with a dumbass smile on my face. Felt soooo good! :)
The crackling of the fire not only warmed me but it made me remember the night before and what a fantastic evening I had.
I got to spend it with my favorite fifteen year old ever.
We sat in our bed and chatted all night and then watched some TV together.
Knowing her like I do I would not have objected to be fifteen again and hanging out with her.
She is so much fun and has such a vibrant personality. I am as proud as can be.
She is a rebel for sure and goes about her life not too concerned what others might think.
I hope very much that I had something to do with that. :)
She is becoming a person more and more aware of her surroundings and she reads situations in a fascinating way for sure.
So the evening I intended just for relaxing in bed with the dog became an evening to cherish forever. The laughter we shared warmed my heart and soul and especially so because the laughter has been missing from my life for a while.
She made me feel so alive and also I felt she inspired me to focus on what is important – personal growth and happiness and not just the focus on the feelings of others. Need to look after me for a change.
I think I might have become too nice of a person, taking into consideration others needs and wants before my own. I need to let go of that and become more like myself from a few years back.
(I am not aiming to become bitchy or anything like that.)
Do not get me wrong because I have no regrets at all. I just need to focus on my own growth as a person more than the growth of all near and dear to me.
If I cannot have that then what is the point in being……really. :)
So a huge THANK YOU to the girl that reminded me of who I really am and also reminded myself so much of me at that age. She will go on to do great things for sure and I hope I will be fortunate to be there and take part of her experiences and that we always will have such an open and wonderful connection.
An evening with simple talk can make such a difference……..small things……glorious life!
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