Mood: Fullfilled
I feel so darn good today. :)
I wish this feeling on all people. <3
Yesterday I was so tired and just wanted to curl up into a little ball in bed shutting the world out.
And that was indeed my full intention.
I then came home and found the girls there in the best of spirits.
I then forgot all about my ball curling plans and enjoyed a wonderful evening.
My darling Miss F and I sat for hours last night and spoke about life and how to best live it.
I love that and it sure seems like ages ago I got to experience this with her.
Lately we have been rather far apart and it has been frustrating feeling that the closeness we used to share were long gone.
Due to this frustration it is even more wonderful to share this moments (in this case hours) with her and feeling that we are right back to the close and loving relation we used to have.
We are so much alike and still soooo darn different.
But I so love hearing her voice telling me how she views the world and what makes her happy etc.
She is such a wonderful young woman and with such a sharpness to her mind and soul.
Sure thing that she drives me crazy sometimes but I guess I do the same to her! :)
The weirdest thing is that when darling BF is not around (right now Mr P is away on a businesstrip) we have the most calm and joyful times at home.
Do not get me wrong cause we have a loving home when he is around too.
It is just calmer and less friction between all the strong personalities in the house.
I think that he is the most loving father ever but sometimes even love can drive you nuts!
When he is away there is not discussions about what the kids want, now wining and spoiled behaviour.
My view on this is that the girls know who I am and what I stand for so there is no need to be trying to push me all the time like the do their father.
The interesting thing is that when he walks thru the door on Sunday this temporary peace will all disappear and become a distant memory and we will be back to the normal level of teenage drama.
But what joy for me to get these days, moments or hours when the drama is gone and the level of respect is greater than what is normal.
It also proves to me that the girls have it in them to be the kind of people I hope they will become and that the dramatic and spoiled versions of them are more meant for getting daddys attention.
:)
I can live with this! It works!
It sure is annoying at times but I just need to deal with it.
Or I can do just like Gwen does in the pic.
Relax and let it just pass by without a care in the world.
Xoxo
