I do really need some excitement in my life………
I feel that everyday seems more or less the same…..nothing wrong with that really and it can actually at times be rather comforting but I need some injection of excitement.
Obviously I have nobody else to blame for this but myself so I am not trying to throw negativity around me. Just saying this so there will no misunderstandings…..
I am more focusing on the positive energies that can be found around me and what I might do with them.
I know I feel different, I have felt different all my life really…….
Like my head is screwed on backwards or something. :)
I am not suffering or anything I just find it so difficult to get the social aspect of my life going in the direction that I want or need it to.
I am fully aware of what a weirdo I am and that I always have found it hard to meet friends that seem to see life like I do. Perhaps there are none??
Scary thought indeed!
And when meeting such excellent (lol) people they tend to have so much going on that there is no need for yet another weirdo in their lives. :)
I mean do not get me wrong because I have lots of cool and fantastic acquaintances and I love them dearly but we do not really hang out and here in lies the problem.
It seems to me that there are not many that shares my interests and this might have to do with the fact that I am a very comfortable person that does not necessarily want to spend my time at a gym or something like that when one could instead sit together chatting and having a cup of tea.
Yeah, I am a lazy butt when it comes to life sometimes. But I do not demand that much witch is one of the biggest misconceptions about me.
I can sit on a cliff looking over the ocean and just talk for a full evening with good friends. (obviously the weather should be nice for this to happen…..yep, I am THAT shallow…)
I just do not find the mad activities that many others partake in that much fun. I like socializing instead in ways when I can get interesting conversations instead of activities where the social aspects will be overlooked. And where I can wear nice shoes……lol
And even more important where people do not take me so darn serious all the time. I love to have a good laugh and I do not mind it being at my expense either as I do many a silly thing that is rather laughable.
I am a loner in some ways and this does not help my case one bit but I shall nevertheless try harder in the future to adapt and be more active and thru my dear active friends perhaps at last find a place for me that will be just that great compromise that we all need to feel exceedingly pleased with our existence. While wearing nice shoooooooes…..lol
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