Mood: So, so…..
I am enjoying a few days on my own with my “angels”. It is great to be able to be just the girls sometimes! :)
It all works out fine really and the house seems to be a great place for us all to be right now.
However!!!
The life that seems to be so smooth gets interrupted by some strange creatures that pops up from nowhere every now and again…..
I know what and who they are but they sure rattle the fragile state of calmness that you live in when you have a busy life.
They are called teenagers!!
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Oh, lord do they give you some gray hairs! You betcha!
I love them and they are great but for some reason they seem to want to turn the delicate situation of peace and tranquillity that I so need after a days work into chaos and conflict.
Totally normal I know!!
In walks wonderful young women that have egos larger than life and needs beyond my wildest dreams.
Have you ever heard of such a thing??
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Unreal right?
Most of the time they just make me laugh and there is lots of love for sure. I feel fortunate to be in this family unit that brings me such joy. <3
But sometimes hell breaks loose!
If not treading easily one will surely sink into the icy waters below.
It can happen any second and if so just run and hide!
Ofcourse this is where I fail, and I fail hard!!
I stay and try to mediate between these siblings that seem to have an endless need to break the other one.
I know this is all normal and so on but it sure is rather annoying that there is no middle way here.
All this anger seems such a waste of time.
However I can think back to growing up and the fight I used to have with brother dearest!!
We might not have been a each others throats like my girls but still I remember……
This is in away comforting! And to hear friends tell of similar stories from other homes also makes it easier to live through.
The dream of a peaceful and nice evening sometimes ends by the front door of the house…..you can feel the energy that surrounds the whole property and it is like sticking your head into a wasps nest.
You know it is going to sting like hell!
Still you have no choice but to just get in there and try to minimise the stings.
Again do not get me wrong because I sure love them! They are the greatest girls I know and I am fortunate to have them in my life.
However!!
I can never ever get over the fact that there seem to be such need for negativity and anger!
I know, I know….teenagers and all that stuff, but still I don’t get it.
Why would you want to be angry when you can be happy?
I do not recognise myself in this at all and I feel that there is a huge gap between me and the girls in this.
And again I need to say “YES, I get it! They are teenagers and all that!”
It will pass for sure and I thank my lucky star that most of the time it is just one at the time that seem to temporarily loosing there senses.
I know that this time in their lives feels weird and lots of stuff happens. I do not blame them at all I just do not understand!
I do not understand how you can feed of the negativity instead of the positive things that are all around you.
I try myself to be a happy person. Sure I get down in the dumps sometimes but not that much.
I am fortunate to be rather a silly soul that sees love and chances to laugh in lots of small trivial things.
Harsh words it might seem but all I am saying is that after working a full day it would be nice to come home to a warm and loving home.
I have had such a great time the last weeks with the girls that the contrast is total when it comes to these situations.
I feel that in a very naive way I open that front door and expect the love that I feel to be felt and returned to me.
I know – silly right?
We all have a great life and this is all just a speed bump that I do not have a problem with really.
It is just nice to sort of get it out of my system by writing about it!
So nothing serious really, no disaster! Just normal life with teenagers!
So to all you teenagers out there!
HEY! YOUR ACTIONS AFFECTS MORE THAN YOURSELF!
- ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE! -
Xoxo
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